Most of the Time

When left alone,
What do you think about?

When I'm alone,
I don't feel the heat and the sweat,
I don't feel the pain in my joints,
I don't feel hunger or thirst,
The discomforts of the present,
The anxiety of the uncertain future,
Nor the regrets of my past.

I often will look around me and wonder.
Who was on this path before me?
I will recreate the moment in my imagination.
What's making these sounds?
May they live long and prosper.
I'm so lucky to have wandered to this place.
As I close my eyes and record this moment in my heart, for a later time.

The serenity of nature
The smell and sounds of the little ones
The breeze that we both have forgotten

Most of the time...

Ant

Where are you going? Mr. Little Ant.
I see where you can go, but there's nothing there!
If you tell me what you're seeking, I can find it and bring it to you.
Is it some chocolate cookies? Or is it some honey?

Here you go, Mr. Little Ant.
I brought you a small crumble, I hope this makes your day.
I wonder if you'll be praised, by your papa and your mama.
I wonder if you'll get rest, the remaining of your day.

Her v2

Everything wasn't the same anymore.
After what enchanted deep in your core.
After all your magical dreams made true.
After what reality you woke to.

You told yourself it was never gonna happen.
You told yourself it's over, better forgotten.
You told yourself miracles aren't reality.
You told yourself you knew it's never meant to be.

Keeping busy, feelings sealed away.
Keeping his memories far away.
Delved misery of reminiscence.


As I watched and observed from a safe distance.

A Brief Encounter

The first time I met you

The first thing I noticed

Your eyes shined so brightly

Your passion burned so intensely

I was privileged a brief encounter

I did the standard and took your number

But somewhere along I found

You already had someone

In my own life, I went my own way

Our paths crossed, not another day

Since then I didn't give you yet another look

That's when you messaged me on Facebook

I greeted you politely, and kept my own respect

You came for some info, and I shared my intellect

Once, twice, three times, we let the topic swayed

That's when I asked, in a relationship you stayed?

To my surprise, the answer was no

To your heart's content, you shared your emo

I shared mine, and we had a brief bond

To what extent, I actually know not

Just a few days after, I got really lucky

Unusually so, you came off work early

I asked you out, and you said yes

Some time was spent, and in the car we sang

A week or two, has since have gone

I've been thinking what to do since dawn

So I sat with a paper, and wrote what I knew

And that's when I found, an address from you

So here's a letter, handwritten and sent

You probably never received, in such an old fashion

Hoping to sincerely show, my clear and deep intention

I hereby plan to court you, and wish for your attention

Selection

There is no doubt that you are my only number one
However in your eyes, I know not where I stand

Pretend am not part of this, let me know what you're thinking
Whether you thought through, this process of selecting
Emotions imbued or emotions aside
I'd like to plan my interactions according to your appetite

Episode

Another episode I have yet to endure
Another affair I have could not procure
With you gone, myself in gloom
With you gone, secrets entombed

I told myself, that this would happen
I told myself, that this would hurt
I knew you would never have cared
I knew your love was ever so rare

Drenched in the rain, I feel the cold wind
Drenched in the tears, I feel the cold within
Forever remained, this shivering sensation
Forever remained, this bitter emotion

I shall get by, like I always do
I shall get by, just like you too
Except you remain oblivious, like you always do
Except I remain penitent, like I always do

It's been some years, I have let myself down
It's been many years, I have let my heart drown
Only to emerge, to yet another defeat
Only to emerge, to once again retreat

Ning-Jia Ong
18 November 2010 at 12:02 

Two Lives

As I walked along the high glass wall,

I see a black bird lying on the floor.

I went up to it and picked it up,

It was stiff and silence, its time was up.

I said a little prayer, I wish it rest in peace,

Thinking where and how, to properly bury it.

Yet another was in my path,

This one was alive but stunned and dazed.

I quickly tried to catch it, to move it to a safe place.

It slipped my graphs and flew, right into the glass wall.

I cringed ever so nervously, as it fell back to the floor.

Thanking god it’s still alive, as I grabbed it as fast as I could.

I put it on a tree branch, as it flew safely back to the sky.

I saved a little bird’s life, but was too late to save the other.

I dug a shallow grave, beneath that same old tree.

With some dirt on my hands, I wish I could have done more.

Two lives I touched today, so little they are to me.

Yet long I thought about it, how much they meant to me.

Di

Di pantai ombak berderu
Di taman burung bersiul
Di sisi mu ku selesa
Di hati mu ku gembira

Pay Phone

I want to hear that you're sad
I want to hear that you're not fine
I want you to feel what I'm feeling
Like how I had always wanted you to

怯

至今的哀莫
明周复明周
见面的机缘有何其多

尝暗静无扰
然沉静无声
累积自己的死心之性

为自尊而忍
据自傲而禁
却遗了妳的真心之愿

我深心愿望
想明妳之心
于翻开你真心的层铠

为妳我感情
供我妳可情
以爱相助则彼此瞭解

Not Single

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Ning-Jia
Ong
Tweets:

Stress is a good and bad thing
I maintain healthy stress levels
Not by avoiding them but instead
Giving them clarity and a
Little thought on how to
Eventually share them with peers
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She Is Taken

Soar to the stars with head held high

Heaven above is not just for the needy

Embrace and share what fate has brought

Invitations from many, to seek your attention

Seeing from afar, but watching ever so closely

Time will come, when you will be ready

Awakened and assured, of what lies ahead

Key is in your hands, the lock is awaiting

Epilogue is nearing, this chapter is closing

Nigh is the time, of a wondering soul searching

Rejection

Confidence sneaks
Pride overcomes
Publicity matters
Secret unattended

The question was asked
The answer was acquainted
Suspends were not included
A straight no was assured

Thoughts

Alone in thoughts, I have not been
Engulfed in chats, things aren't as it seems
Figured out feelings, I lack the peace
Seeking confirmation, doubts not relieved

Missing

There is somebody I am missing
Such a feeling, it is confusing
We hardly meet, our lives not entwined
Independent beings, yet thoughts in synced

Dttl

Thus far I came
From hence I dream
A place that varied
From the one I came

Mess still the same
Hours still embraced
Friends weren't as many
Yet friends was what was worthy

Problems

They were always far away
Lingering in the shadows night and day
Sometimes they haunt me
Sometimes they flaunt to me

Yet I never bother
Since the worst was over
At least that's what I tell myself
That they don't really affect myself

But the burden is increasing
Wisdom come with aging
Responsibilities accumulating
Room to breath decreasing

Conscious of decisions from my part
A comfort due for an old rugged heart
Intervention looming
Redemption nearing

AMCU

I didn't know what i was in for..
I wasn't prepared..
I took it all casually..
I was much impaired..

Every day was me leading..
Every night was us partying..

But I'm Hoping so Much You'll Stay

when will this story end
I have yet to find
a worthy source of comfort
should I look behind?

oh, signs from all eternity
I have been so blind
rest this exhausted body
and release me from solitary bind

days of endless summers
nights of endless winter
days when we were younger
nights when things were simpler

by strength, by courage, by wisdom
I shall overcome this boredom
and continue to chase my passions
that does not involve maidens 

And Myvi's My Only Car

I got no Calvin, nor no Klein
But you'll always be my sunshine
Even when the rain comes you won't be wet
I'll always shield you I promise you that

When your eyes meet mine, I freeze in time
Destiny's spoken, true love's first sign
Yet fate have not been kind, our hearts have yet to bind
Our paths have not align, our souls have not entwine