Been Awhile

It's been awhile since I wrote

"Just start writing now" was told

Here's a piece of creativity

To express what is in me

Disaster-triumph foretold

Experiences I would mould

Patience and virtues unfold

Led to careers and some gold

Attachments and cravings shunned

A km I would not run

Comfort and discomfort, punt

Histories, I wouldn't want

Breath of cool air, sun's on face 

Sigh of relief, life's been paced 

I've unattached to the race

Contentment, I have encased

0700, 27/02/2021

Fool

I hate the quietness, coz it gets me thinking..

Thinking of you and the consequences following..

Can't I stay occupied, with no thoughts of you in mind?

Lost and confused, this's something I'll never find..

Hate these feelings of uncertainty..

Fooling myself into stupidity..

Out of control, out of my sanity..

When once was enough, two was way plenty..

Every other instance, time pass and I get by..

Mistakes or not, it's always a good bye..

Never to see you again, way out of my life..

Yet to return again, such has been my vice..

So here we are again, what am I to do?

And if I let it slip, will I be another fool?

But if I take this fall, what else will pursue?

Please give me a hint, or perhaps just one clue?

2011-02-14

Same

Of everything that's said

Our blood is red

Our bones are white

We're all the same inside

Young

While young at heart, we're envious of another.
Seeking a place, where we're wealthy and fancied.
Comes a time, we're older and wiser.
Envious no more, regrets are what we see.

The Little Bird

This is one of my best poems I wrote… I dedicate this to my friends that I really care allot… the ones I talked long hours through the night, the ones who shared their problems with me, the ones who I truely admirer and appreciate… hehe, you know who you are… ;)
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The Little Bird

I have a little story
About a little bird
Who lives in the vast sky
Where all possibilities occur

The bird loved the sky
Where she spent her happiest times
Exploring the heavens above
Enjoying the beauty of lands below

Free as the sky could offer
As high as she could soar
Open to all things
The little bird didn’t know before

A strike from the back
From the pure blue sky
It all came so sudden
She felt she was going to die

As she fell to the ground
As hard as she could hit
As wounded as she ever could be
She survived and started to crawl

No more did she dare take flight
For it hurt her far too bad
For ages she suffered
Hardly able to survive

Never looking up again
She lived on the ground
Little did she ever remember
The happiness she had in the sky

The best times she always had
The endless happiest moments
The feeling of forever being loved
When she was in the sky

One day she looked up
She heard some birds fly past
The birds she used to be with
The memories she had left to rust


A song the birds were singing
Touched the little heart of the bird
Who fell and remained scarred
And this is the song she heard:

“A few times I have fallen
(The first was the worst)
But I’ve always remembered them
As the best times of my life

Despite the times I fell so fast
Despite the times I hit so hard
Despite the times I crawled so low
Despite the wounds that hurt so bad

I’ve always flown up again
Understanding better
Enjoying the sky like never before
Loving it more then ever

The times I am up here
I remember the times I fell
Grateful that I’m up soaring
Far from where I was crawling”

At this the bird woke up
And started to understand
The scars were never there
It was just a nightmare

Letting the fall scared her
Till she blinded herself from the times
When she was up above
Higher than paradise

She pulled herself upright
And stared hard at the sky
Trusting it one more time
She raised her wings up high

Her tiny feet left the ground
As her wings hit the wind
As hard as she knew it would be
But never did she give in


With all her little might
She hit it one more time
With all her courage and effort
She made it to the sky

Once more she was soaring
Through the heavens up above
Once more she was home
In the skies she had always loved

The scars that were on her
Had all disappeared
The time she believed in herself
Was the time she was freed from all fears

She joined the birds who sang
Inspiring her to try her wings
Together they enjoyed the winds
That blew her tears all dry

This is where my story ends
About the little bird
The beauty of life is always there
It’s where you look that matters

<circa 2004>

Indifference

Indifference Part I:
Hurt by words of indifference,
Of vengeance, and of riddance.
These words from acquaintance,
Has made us turn to silence.

Yet different we really are,
Yet alone we really are.
So why we try to fit in?
When being unique was never a sin.

We must come to realise,
There’s no need for disguise.
We must come to comprehend,
What we look for in a friend.

Friends who think we’re amazing,
Just the way we are.
Friends who think we’re amusing,
When we’re acting bizarre!

Indifference Part II:
So why not be my friend,
For I need a girlfriend.
To tend my lonely nights,
I promise your delight!

November 6, 2011 at 6:13 AM

Real?

Is this real
or is this not real
I cant tell
how I'm supposed to feel
They say I'll heal
That I'll learn how to deal
But I can't handle all of this

October 6, 2010 at 9:30 PM

每人

每人的生活，
每人的急转。
本路已忘形，
己身不安宁。

June 24, 2010 at 1:32 PM

Down Goes the Juggler

There goes the juggler,
Juggling three balls.
Up and down, round and round.
Proudly showing how well he's become.

Pop goes a sound,
That shook this juggler.
One balls falls,
And away with the others.

Trying to pick them up,
As they rolled across the floor.
Crawling down under,
The poor old Juggler.

April 19, 2010 at 4:08 PM

Untitled

Another episode I have yet to endure
Another affair I have could not procure
With you gone, myself in gloom
With you gone, secrets entombed

I told myself, that this would happen
I told myself, that this would hurt
I knew you would never have cared
I knew your love was ever so rare

Drenched in the rain, I feel the cold wind
Drenched in the tears, I feel the cold within
Forever remained, this shivering sensation
Forever remained, this bitter emotion

I shall get by, like I always do
I shall get by, just like you too
Except you remain oblivious, like you always do
Except I remain penitent, like I always do

It's been some years, I have let myself down
It's been many years, I have let my heart drown
Only to emerge, to yet another defeat
Only to emerge, to once again retreat

November 18, 2010 at 12:02 PM

The Love Bug

Buzz buzz buzz, the love bug went
Landed on my window with a soft *thum thum*
I stared at it while it stared at me,
Wondering if it’s going to bite me!

January 21, 2008 at 4:56 PM

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fruits of yst, will nv be ripen
For yst i laid, wishing d day b quickened
Nothing was accomplished, nothing was done
To prevent d day from, watching d set sun

Why am i so down? a lil voice began to speak
Is it coz u lost that someone? Far away from ur reach?
Did she even say gd bye? Or she had let it fade?
From d memories of moments, to d ever lasting wait.

Begone these feelings, i hate to feel remorse
I do not need these emotions, my mind jst gets worse
Yet my heart aches alil, by thinking u were gone
Gone from yet another moment, it seems d devil has won

The Little Pond

Shallow waters of this little pond,
Stepping in it oddly kept me warm.
But half my body's still held bear,
That's how I feel when with her.

So away I stand, far from sight.
Looking at her while under the light.
Rather not involved in her daily life,
Where I might mess up her entire life.

必念

不想爱也不想恋
想她之喜永不怜
可我好久没必念
我心永久想不连

Girl in the Red Hat

Girl in the red hat, from afar.
Smiled and winked, she took my heart.
On the main walkway, in my thongs.
Staring at her, doing it all wrong.

She's just right there, yet she feels so far.
I wished I've been there, from there start.
Wondering where she's been, wondering where she's from.
That girl in the red hat, from afar.

Love

How lucky I am!
to have you
by my side
as my wife

My heart warms
My chest squeezes
My limbs softens
My head lightens

When I think of you
When I see you
When I’m near you
When I’m with you

I love you my mahal ko
So much so much
Very much very much
Higit pa sa dati

Quiet Zone

Traffik teruk lah, pagi-pagi ni
Lagi geram Grab I salah pusing
Kalau nak kerja kat meja best ni
Duduklah diam-diam jangan buat bising

Used

I wanna die an empty toothpaste tube
Not a full toothpaste tube
For what is the purpose of a full toothpaste tube?
Except to be used till it’s empty?

30th

Into my life you came
Like an angel to a flame
Fearless of the heat
A wild heart to meet

Matched on CMB
The start was boring as can be
We finally met that faithful day
With your bestie that was gay!

I am not a believer
Damaged and lost we both were
I am not a perfect guy
Neither are you a perfect girl

Yet look at where we are now
Grown and matured, but still farting out loud
Mahal kita higit pa sa dati
We’ll be a team higit pa sa dati

Another

You came into my life
When I was looking for another
In an awkward situation
You never knew each other